Hey loves, I wanted to write a more spontaneous post today about a few thoughts that have been coming back to my mind lately. I am sorry if it will sound a bit like a stream of consciousness but sometimes I just like going with the flow.
November has been a month in which I put my life on pause. Some things are changing for me in the next months and I feel like I needed a break from chasing my own life. Even if I (and we!) shouldn’t care about what others think about me, I felt the pressure that society puts on a person who is in her thirties. Everyone expects that we should have it by now all figured it out..a stable job in a country you know you want to live in, maybe buy a house, get married, or have children. But what if it’s not like that? I look in the mirror and see myself. Young but with a few white hairs, facing a thousand possible paths to take but one to choose as time goes by. Scary, isn’t it? But I think growing up is this too…
All these thoughts crowded my mind and I decided to slow down and take some time not to think. I had a lot planned for this month but I just stopped. I think it’s just fine not having all the pieces of our life put together and we shouldn’t feel what others want for us but what we want for ourselves. We aren’t disappointing anyone.
“every once in a while. take off
your life. and rest.”
–Nayyirah Waheed
Rambling around in my thoughts brought only bad feelings like stress and anxiety. The more I was thinking the more I was comparing myself with others, like friends, colleagues, contacts on social media…and this is such a toxic thing to do because even if it seems so, no one has perfect life. So I decided to shift my mindset and to focus on what I really want.
I am the only one responsible for my own feelings and for how I feel every day. I choose myself first. I choose what makes me happy. I choose to slow down without feeling bad if I am not that productive. I choose not to compare myself with others. I choose to be satisfied with my achievements. I choose to stay away from negative companies and complaints.
I just want to keep on working on myself to be a better person day after day without caring what society wants from a thirty-year-old girl. Everything has its own time and it will happen when it is the right moment for me. What I would like to do now is enjoy life! Start a new job with enthusiasm and a smile on my face, save money for future plans, travel to new destinations, invest time in my personal projects like this small blog, and love the people that I mostly care about.
Loves, a small and positive reminder that I would like to send to all of you is to be kind to ourselves and live in a bit more light-hearted way following our own priorities. We should be positive and proactive but respect our timing.
So let’s get out of bed now and continue all the wonderful things we have been already doing until today. Thanks for supporting and reading this blog!
With love,
